So amazing.

I'm slowing getting ready for tonight. I have my outfit picked out. I finished straightening my hair. The Blazers are playing tonight. The snow has melted. I feel...kind of excited. This is the first time in awhile that I felt excited to do anything. Maybe I really will be okay. Baby steps though, baby steps.

Tomorrow is his 26th birthday. I'm going to call him. Leave him a message. I know I'm just making this harder for myself, but I also know there aren't very many more days until he leaves. Granted I don't know the exact date [nor is it really any of my business anymore], but I do think it's coming up. My goal is to stop trying to contact him completely after by the new year. I have no desire to date or find my rebound guy. It's not fair to myself or to whatever guy I may meet. I can't date someone else while I'm still in love. Apparently I have a lot of work I need to take care of. But hey, maybe this Valentine's day won't suck completely. I think I may just come back here and hang out with Sabrina. Sounds like a plan.

Anyway, here's to tonight. Celebrating with friends that stood by me through the past few years. To getting my groove back...or at least some of it. Here's to looking like a knock out and loving it.