Tuesday, December 9, 2008
I'd rather dream forever.
Not a second goes by that I don't think of you.
I woke up this morning hoping you were next to me. My bed feels emptier than usual. I checked my phone hoping I received one of those sweet "good morning" text messages. My phone is a lot quieter lately. I still want to call you when I'm home from class. I still glance at the clock every night at 9pm, thinking it's time for our nightly chats. I remember how I used to start my day and how I ended it- with you. Those were the best moments of my day.
I honestly thought if I was the first one to call you in the morning to wish you a good day, you'd realize how much you mean to me. I guess 2:30am my time isn't a huge sacrifice. I hope you don't hate me for doing that. I guess you don't because you don't ignore my calls...they just ring and ring... I just want you to know that I love you and that I still care for you. Always. I miss you and my heart is still with you. I don't like my life without you in it.