Oh, let me fix this right quick...

Today sucked.

Everything I have heard so far, sans a few people has been basically: fix the situation so Jackie doesn't feel bad. Apparently I have to protect her. And make our mutual friends happy.


Why can't they understand that it's time for me to be happy? Is it fair to have me fix something that doesn't make me happy? I am tired of all of this. I'm tired of what happended today.

I guess this is what people depend on me to do. Give up what I want for what they want. And quite frankly, it sucks.

I know this situation doesn't just involve me. I know there are two people. But for once I want something for me and now I'm being selfish. It's like no one can see ME and care enough to just let this be. I'm sorry you guys are mutual friends. I'm sorry this affects you guys. But really....don't I matter?