I hate what I did today. I feel as though I let myself down. I wanted to take a stand- to do something for myself. I wanted to defend myself and change the way things are. But I am me. I cannot hurt two other people in the process, regardless of how selfish they are being. How hypocritical they are being.


I am tired. And reevaluating who my true friends are. If anything, this whole ordeal has taught me that the people I thought I could trust really would rather they protect themselves that stand by my decision.

When are they going to learn that the day I walk away will be the day they realize they will not have anyone to keep them all together anymore? If that is the way they want to handle things, I will gladly accept that challenge.

I'm TIRED.