Random!

15 random facts about yours truly:

1.) I hate telling people my middle name because I can't stand it when people mispronounce my name. I know it's not their fault, but it still bothers me. Sometimes I give out a fake name when I'm put on a list just so people don't have to struggle to make sense of my real name.
2.) I tend to bake a lot when I'm in a bad mood because it distracts me. The idea is that I have to focus my thoughts on measuring the ingredients rather than on what's bothering me. At least my friends benefit from all of the baked goods!
3.) I tend to worry A LOT about the people in my life. I basically want people to be happy and I will do everything/anything in my power to help them achieve that.
4.) I speak English and Vietnamese fluently. I also took four years of French in high school.
5.) People may not believe it just by looking at me, but I love doing reckless/rebellious things. I love the adrenaline rush. I'm dying to of sky diving and bungee jumping. But mostly, I love driving fast.
6.) I am pretty allergic to cats but I love them. They are so adorable. When I'm around someone with a cat, I can't help but play with them.
7.) I'm not close with my family, but they still mean the world to me. I was not raised to express the mushy feelings, but I still feel it in my heart.
8.) I have three really close friends, all of whom I refer to as my sisters. I usually forget to mention to people that we are not related in anyway, shape, or form.
9.) I have always wanted to be a kindergarten teacher, but that's not what I'm in school for. I think I'm going to be a social worker. I just want to work with children. I want to help them. I think they are being far too neglected in our society- especially since we are supposed to depend on them for a better future.
10.) I have a crazy case of ornithophobia. For some reason I absolutely hate birds and am freaked out by them. It's irrational, but I just can't help it.
11.) I have a strong desire to move out of Oregon because I've never lived anywhere else, but I do know that I want to eventually move back here to raise my family.
12.) My favorite genre of movie is horror. I love watching slasher flicks and the gory stuff because it's entertaining to see what the writers and directors come up with.
13.) I still sleep with a bear at night because it's comforting to me. I think it's because my boyfriend is not here. Cuddling makes me feel safe and protected.
14.) I'm Vietnamese but I have never traveled there to meet my Dad's side of the family. I think I'm scared to.
15.) I don't really mind if people are disappointed in me. I mean it bothers me a bit but it absolutely kills me to know that I disappointed myself.

Regardless of how much time you spend hanging out with or talking to someone, you can never really know a person inside and out. The only person who knows you completely is yourself. You are the only one who knows your thoughts and feelings. You know that feeling you get at the pit of your stomach when something is wrong. You know the feeling of butterflies in your stomach when you feel that connection. It's the stuff only you can feel. It's easy for you to tell someone what you're feeling, but it's another thing for the other person to believe it as the truth. They only know what you tell them. They only know what they are allowed to know.

I suppose there are some people who know some of the things on this list, but I don't think there is a single person who knows all of it. I actually wonder if it's even possible for someone to be that person.