Quiet Reflection

It's rare to have someone tell you that you are able to make them care about things. Earlier today, my boyfriend had mentioned that I actually make him care about things he would not normally care about. Or rather, he never really gave much thought into what other people thought or felt. I thought it was strange to hear this because everyone has to care about something, right? I mean, I do understand you really should not care about what society thinks as a generalized idea but it is rather important to take some things into consideration.

For the most part, I believe that most people are not comfortable sharing their thoughts, feelings, and/or concerns because it might make them weak in the eyes of the public. This is usually seen in males, mostly due to the idea that they are supposed to be "manly" rather than "soft". I am fairly certain we can blame societal standards for this one. But it is not just guys who are guilty of hiding feelings. Of all things I understand the concept of feeling the need to hide things. I was raised to do as I was told; to not ask questions and do what I need to in order to get through life. And now, at the good ol' age of 21, I still hold back things.

I suppose the reason for why I do this is because I hate it when people worry about me. I don't think they have a reason to be. I hate crying in front of people because I think it makes me look weak. I hate talking about my problems because I don't want people to want to try to help me. I figure if I have a problem, I should be able to get myself out of it.

Characteristically I worry about people a lot. Especially if they are constant factors in my life. My friends and family know this first hand and I think they appreciate it. So much can't be said when it comes to relationships, because hey, what guy want to know that some girl is worried about their well being? Oh yeah, the ones that disappeared on me...haha...okay that was a silly tangent that needs to revisited on another day.

But with that being said, I am still the girl who feels a little pang of concern when I see a child running and then falling on the sidewalk; regardless of whether I know them or not. When I see that my friends are upset, I usually worry about their well being. I can't help it.

I guess all of my emotions can be chalked up to my being a girl, but I really hope society still has a heart. It is nice to be independent and understand that it is sometimes more important to live for yourself than others, but it is also relevant to show compassion toward others.

I guess this whole thing was a huge tangent. But my point is that my boyfriend now cares about people [and me]. I guess I can help better people =]