My mind is strong, but my heart is weak.

Spending this weekend with him made me realize how fast [and hard] I'm falling for him. I have always been the one who has to tell the other "please don't hurt me". But this time around, he was the first one to utter those four words. I am constantly terrified that when I'm with someone, they will end up hurting me. But really, I think it's because I think I get hurt so often as a result of me not being good enough to be with them. Why else would they not want to be with me? I know my thought process is becoming increasingly harmful to myself, but I can't bring myself to let it go. I need someone to prove to me that I really am worth it.

I don't want him to hurt me, but it would absolutely kill me if I somehow hurt him in anyway...


and that's what terrifies me right now.